My Dream

My dream wasn’t to be pregnant.
My vision wasn’t of me wearing maternity clothes and “ooh-ing” and “aah-ing” over newborn clothes.
I never longed to go through the birth process.
I never sought comfort in having a crib in the room down the hall.

Instead, my dream is to wear the hat of cheerleader, chef, housekeeper, chauffer, referee, nurse, and general multi-tasker.
I long to put our child(ren) to bed, read him a story, sing him a song, and tuck him in.
I want to tell him to dream big and always try his best.
I need to sit on the sidelines and cheer him on as he plays football, basketball, or whatever sports he enjoys.
I look forward to nights of being frazzled and exhausted, realizing that I didn’t get half the things done that I intended to, but happy knowing that I spent time with him instead.
I dream of teaching him new things, watching him learn, and taking him new places.
Our firsts won’t be about teeth or steps. Instead, we will beam the first time he calls us Mom & Dad, the first time he sees the ocean, the first time he tells us what he learned in Sunday School, the first time he says ‘I love you’.
I long to fix his boo-boos, calm his fears, and wipe away tears.
I look forward to helping him with homework that I don’t understand either.
I can’t wait to tickle him and hug him, and remind him over and over that I love him.

My dream isn’t to have a baby…
My dream is to be a Mom.
And my dream will soon come true!

We are NOT settling. This isn’t a last resort. Our prayer all along has been that God would allow us to be parents. And I believe with all my heart that He will soon do just that.

This is the path that God led us down, so that we will find the child that we were meant to love, protect, and raise. We intentionally did NOT explore every avenue possible to get pregnant, because God showed us that He had something different planned for us.

Our worth doesn’t come from a child looking like us or getting our genes (in some ways he’s probably better without them!). No, it comes from knowing that we are exactly where God wants us to be, seeking His guidance, and bringing up a child who will know that he is loved by his Mom & Dad, and more importantly by a God who will always be with him.

So please don’t think of pitying us or feeling sorry for us. Be happy for us, and rejoice in our upcoming arrival. We are beyond excited. We are anxious and can hardly contain ourselves as we look towards our future as parents.